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Whispering Stars: Part Three [YooSu]

Whispering Stars: Part Three
Pairing: YooSu
Rating: Eventually NC-17 (probably)

Section: One, Two

Summary: When words and time create a distance between two beating hearts, Yoochun and Junsu must decide if their love can be resurrected from the ashes of their pain.


The tangle of blood-red sheets around Yoochun’s thighs tempted Junsu. Tight around Chun’s lower body, the bed linens clung to his too-slender torso, the rise of his cheeks pulling the fabric taut across his ass. Blue-black ink peeked out from under the cotton sheet’s edge, a dark declaration of his past loyalties on his pale skin.

Junsu found himself tracing the letters on Yoochun’s back before he realized he was doing it. It was a familiar feel, the soft downy skin kissed with a faint spray of freckles that never seemed to fade and the slight dip of Yoochun’s spine where it met his buttocks. Over time, the tattoo sank under Yoochun’s skin and Junsu could admit he missed the newly inked tattoo’s feel. Back then, he’d found the edges of the markings in the dark and practiced saying their band’s name in English as he traced the letters.

“I never ever got to finish saying your name, Chunnie-ah.” Junsu blushed, remembering how his touch often inflamed Yoochun’s desire for him and they’d end up making love in the middle of the night, their cries muffled between their pressed lips to prevent the other members from hearing them.

“Did we fade down? Like your tattoo?” He whispered, leaning over Yoochun until his lips almost brushed over the young man’s shoulder. “Am I that way in your heart as well? A memory of something you had once? Am I that rose you saved between the pages of a book and am now nothing more than a fragrant powder from the passing time?”

He blinked and a single drop fell from his lashes, splashing onto the roll of Yoochun’s shoulder. The tear ran slowly down the curve of muscle and struck the sheet, leaving a perfect black circle on the red linens. Turning his head, Junsu screwed his eyes shut and bit his upper lip, struggling to stave off the sobs he knew he’d have to control if he didn’t want to wake Yoochun up. The battle was nearly lost when the other man rolled over onto his side and Junsu heard him moan, a soft broken cry laden with anguish.

“It was my fault, I know.” Junsu wiped at his burning eyes, smearing his tears onto the back of his hand. “I said so… many things to you… so many hurtful things and what I did…”

The end began when Junsu fell into the darkness he’d fought silently. It crept in slowly, seeping into his thoughts with each passing day until the world no longer held any light. He’d professed encouragement when Yoochun began his drama but the embers of resentment were lit and Junsu found himself picking at their relationship until it was strained and fragile.

He’d pushed things to the edge when he’d visited the set and found Joong Ki sprawled on Yoochun’s lap as they watched the other actors shoot a scene. Neither man needed to be there, Junsu discovered when he walked onto the set, they’d stayed to spend time with the other actors…with each other.

Yoochun followed him after he coldly informed his lover he was leaving. He’d reached the dirt clearing the crew was using as a parking lot before the man caught up with him, his longer legs cutting the quickly distance between them. The words Junsu found in his jealousy were sharp and he’d felt a small taint of satisfaction at the hurt in Yoochun’s eyes when he said each one.

Now he felt only regret for pushing away the one person who’d stood by him at every turn of his life.

“I should have talked to you more. I should have told you how helpless I was feeling and how scared I was that we weren’t…that the three of us were going to fail.” Junsu rested his cheek on Yoochun’s shoulder, adding to the trail of tears he’d already shed. Another whisper of the sheets stilled Junsu's words and he reached across Yoochun's body, holding the man as close as he dared before continuing.

“I’m still scared and it’s so deep inside of me I’m afraid that it will never come out. It would have been easier of the other two had come with us. I’d feel more certain…that we had a chance…that we can survive this but now, I’m just frightened I’ve lost the one thing… the one person that mattered most to me in all of this. I’m afraid I’ve lost you, agi.”

“You haven’t lost me, Susu-ah,” Yoochun murmured. His fingers found the brush of Junsu’s nape and he stroked at the spot. “How could you lose me when you live in my heart?”

#

Yunho jerked out of his sound sleep, startled by the incessant trolling of his cell phone’s ringer. He didn’t need to look at the number. He knew who was on the other end. Grabbing the phone from his nightstand, he stared at the closed phone, debating the wisdom of answering it but he knew before he flipped it open, he would regret letting it go to voice mail.

He’d paid dearly for doing that in the past and found what little control over his life slip away under the pressure of the company he chose over his lover.

“Hello.” He rubbed at his eyes, blinking to focus on the faint light coming through the slit in his bedroom curtains. The breathing on the phone made him roll over and sigh heavily. “Jaejoong…”

“Sorry. I had to…” The other man’s voice caught on a chunk of pain in his throat and Yunho swallowed convulsively. “I wanted to tell you I talked to Junsu.”

“Did he go speak to Yoochun?” Yunho grunted. He had to fight to keep his voice even, forcing himself to remain distant and aloof from the tender-hearted, complex soul he longed to reach out to.

“Yeah.”

The sound of a cigarette being sucked on hit Yunho deep in his belly and the man sighed. He’d lost the right to admonish Jaejoong over his smoking. Clearing his throat, he forced his voice to flatten. “Was that it?”

“No…” Jae exhaled and Yunho could almost imagine he smelled the harsh bitter smoke in the air around him. “I wanted to say thanks. For talking to him.”

“You shouldn’t call me. You know it’s…dangerous.” Yunho turned over onto his back and covered his eyes with his forearm. The weight across his face helped him focus on being in the room and he hoped it would be enough to stave off the want to be with the man he was speaking to. “You shouldn’t have given Junsu my number. You know this, Jaejoong.”

“He needed… to talk to you. I didn’t know… what else to do, Yunho-ah.”

“They’re yours now, Jaejoong. When you walked away from me…from us…” He gritted his teeth, forcing himself to continue even though the fractured sob he just heard echoed in his ears. “You took them. You need to take care of them.”

“Is it that fucking easy for you?” Jaejoong’s guttural Korean cut Yunho short. “To walk away…”

“You’re the one who walked away, Jaejoong. Not me.”

“You were supposed to come with us. Remember?”

It stung to have the truth thrown back in his face and not for the first time, Yunho wanted nothing more than to crawl over broken glass rather than admit to his ex-lover that he’d been scared…still was scared… of living in the freefall the three were in. He needed the stability. Yunho needed that security in order to survive.

Or so he thought before he found himself in the emptiness of his life without Jaejoong.

“Don’t call me anymore. Please…” Yunho couldn’t keep the strain out of his voice. “It’s better if you don’t. Better for both of us.”

“And Junsu? He thinks of you as his leader… all of us think of you that way. What about him? And Yoochun? I can see you turning away from me but them?”

“You’re their leader now, Kim Jaejoong. They can’t come to me anymore…”

Yunho didn’t have a chance to finish. A dial tone had replaced the breathing on the other end of the phone and Yunho felt his eyes water and a thread of moisture made the skin on his arm slick where it lay on his face.

“I’d hoped that if I stayed…they would let you go… let the three of you be but that’s…they won’t. They won’t stop going after you until they’ve taken everything…everyone from you,” Yunho whispered into the empty line. “It would be so much worse for you if I were there with you. They’d destroy you. “It is better this way. For you, Joongie-ah. I am doing this for you.”

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gu2duck
Mar. 26th, 2011 01:47 am (UTC)
CLAIMED!
gu2duck
Mar. 26th, 2011 02:06 am (UTC)
*sighs* i wish i cud help yoosu n yunjae wif their hopeless case. too many untold doubts, fear n secrets turns everything upside down.
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ingenu3
Mar. 26th, 2011 02:34 am (UTC)
I SEEE THIS UPDATE!

i love you i DO!
ingenu3
Mar. 26th, 2011 02:42 am (UTC)
T___________________T

YOU JUST HAVE TO BREAK MY YUNJAE HEART TOOOO
*WAILS

/looks at broken pieces of my heart on the floor,

baby you have to fix this
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min7girl
Mar. 26th, 2011 03:11 am (UTC)
Misguided love. So very sad. Both couples. Doing the wrong things for the wrong reasons.

This fic has me sooo depressed.

Thank you for writing it!
wedspawn
Mar. 26th, 2011 05:31 am (UTC)
oh yes. doing the wrong things does happen in love. :::grins:::

we shall lighten up the mood, promise.
winter_subaki
Mar. 26th, 2011 03:17 am (UTC)
it's getting worst, will all doubt and misunderstanding, feeling unsecure with each other. it's so sad, they hurt themselves just to protect each other T_T
wedspawn
Mar. 26th, 2011 05:32 am (UTC)
there is a lot of doubt and misunderstanding but oh, yoosu...they shall work on it. junsu misses his chun.
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forevrseptember
Mar. 26th, 2011 03:20 am (UTC)
;~~~~~~~~~~;

lawsuit fic + broken!yoosu. excuse me while i go cry.
wedspawn
Mar. 26th, 2011 05:37 am (UTC)
::::hugs:::: ah, i shall fix the yoosu. promise. :::snookies:::
anime76
Mar. 26th, 2011 03:24 am (UTC)
I smell a YunJae coming up after this. As much as i love Min7 & YooSu, deep down i'm still a YJ lover....

hm...so it all boils down to insecurities *sigh*. I would have thought YooSu are above Min7 & YJ in terms of opening up with each other, but i guess there are still times when you just don't know what/when to say. Lucky for Su that Chunnie just can't survive without him. Work at it guys!
wedspawn
Mar. 26th, 2011 05:39 am (UTC)
i am a yunjae shipper too but this is probably the last we'll see of them in this fic. :::Grins:::

and yes, insecurities can take a toll and there is so much pressure around them that things can fall apart but oh, they are willing to fix things up. :::nods:::

heh.... snookies.
yamapilovergyal
Mar. 26th, 2011 03:28 am (UTC)
*sniff* ;___; oh my, really did not expect that~ my heart ACHES SO FUCKING BAD. wae is this all happening?!!?!? i want my 5 boys back right nao~! ;^;
wedspawn
Mar. 26th, 2011 05:40 am (UTC)
i do too. yoosu however will be talking and um...probably be doing other things as well. ^_^

snooooooookies.
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wedspawn
Mar. 26th, 2011 05:41 am (UTC)
it will be fun. i have the weekend to write yoosu making up :::winks:::
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ekin_hardy
Mar. 26th, 2011 08:35 am (UTC)
aww....I dunno what to say anymore...it broke my heart to think of the situation they might encounter in real-ife...

thabks for this...atleast in this fic of yours we can came up with excuses and reasons...

TT.TT
wedspawn
Mar. 26th, 2011 04:10 pm (UTC)
this in some ways is a hard fic to write but i wanted to delve into the heart of their issues. and ah, yoosu will be finding their love. they shall.
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wedspawn
Mar. 26th, 2011 04:19 pm (UTC)
ah we shall see how conscious yoochun is. they are on their way in the next section. :::winks::::

and yes, ah, yunjae. i felt that was necessary to lay down some groundwork between yoosu.

but ah, junsu and yoochun are.... well they will be fine.
shinchul303
Mar. 26th, 2011 04:00 pm (UTC)
I'd forgotten how much you beat up your readers. Ouch!
wedspawn
Mar. 26th, 2011 04:19 pm (UTC)
what? me? noooooo... i'm nice. :::grins:::
agnetalovek
Mar. 26th, 2011 07:06 pm (UTC)
Oh my YunJae is in a critical condition as well
wedspawn
Mar. 26th, 2011 08:24 pm (UTC)
oh yes, they are.... yoosu... probably will fix or work towards that. :::nods:::
ting5
Mar. 26th, 2011 07:31 pm (UTC)
Junsu is hurting just as much. Now that they are slowly letting out the feelings and words that was buried deep inside of them, hopefully things will be worked out.

Ahh the YunJae /sigh
wedspawn
Mar. 26th, 2011 08:23 pm (UTC)
junsu is hurting as much and ah, they have to fix it between them. they shall. :::nods::: hopefully.

yunjae. there is no fixing that here. not yet.
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rinmi
Mar. 26th, 2011 11:29 pm (UTC)
chun must hear what junsu said :D

wth was joonki sitting on chun? 0.o

i c why su got mad...

time for some explaining ^^
wedspawn
Mar. 27th, 2011 02:32 am (UTC)
heh.... ah, chun does have some talking to do. :::grins::: and yes, he did hear junsu. so... we shall see what they have to say, no?
naegastar
Mar. 27th, 2011 07:04 am (UTC)
That ending...tears everywhere ;~; My inner angst lover is very happy right now ♥

wedspawn
Mar. 27th, 2011 04:52 pm (UTC)
ah, the yoosu shall work together. i promise. :::hugs:::
joy_twinz
Mar. 28th, 2011 12:43 pm (UTC)
lost count how many times I cried on this.T_T
wedspawn
Mar. 28th, 2011 02:15 pm (UTC)
::::hugs:::: i am hoping to make them a bit better from now. :::nods::: smooooooches.
jinsane226
Mar. 29th, 2011 05:26 am (UTC)
;A; I should have waited to read this considering that I'm not in the best of moods but ;o;
Ill come back and re-read and leave a better comment when I'm not crying over the OT5!TVXQ that I miss.
wedspawn
Mar. 29th, 2011 05:34 am (UTC)
::::hugs:::: i promise that yoosu will kiss and make up. so much promise :::squishes::: love love love.
vermillion77
Mar. 29th, 2011 07:46 am (UTC)
i'm still late *sigh*
kekekekkee
awwww this is so painfull, hope Yoosu get back together soon...
wedspawn
Mar. 29th, 2011 02:56 pm (UTC)
it is okay sunshine. i am still wrestling with the last section :::Grins::: smooooooches.
futago_u
Mar. 29th, 2011 01:13 pm (UTC)
Your work are always so wonderful :3333 I WUB YOU UNNIEE!! This story seems more real than the actual ordeal itself. I miss them so damnn bloody much. If onlyyy~~~.

I cried T___T as always... Keep up the great work, it's been ages since you've written a YooSu piece :D.
wedspawn
Mar. 29th, 2011 03:01 pm (UTC)
i miss them too. what i hope the most is for them to be happy in their hearts. i know right now, it's not that way but i'd want that for anyone. it must be so hard for them because their heartbreak is so public... so documented that they cannot even talk or feel anything where someone might see. that's the saddest part of this.

with luck, they will survive and once again become one. :::hugs you:::

snookies.
acornmama
Aug. 28th, 2011 08:09 pm (UTC)
oh, the absolute heartbreak!! I am just so in one of those moods where this is perfect.
ivarisha
Oct. 18th, 2012 08:00 am (UTC)
that hurts. a lot.
Before DBSK I never know that I can hate something so much. I hate SM. so fucking much.
and I missed them together. so much.

Edited at 2012-10-18 08:01 am (UTC)
wedspawn
Oct. 19th, 2012 02:42 am (UTC)
SM is the devil :D
ztarplay
Aug. 8th, 2013 05:59 am (UTC)
*Pouts*


I'm so not crying...





NOT FUCKIN CRYING...



*Sniff*
wedspawn
Aug. 8th, 2013 06:05 am (UTC)
HUGS
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