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So Much Mine: FINAL SECTION (35)


what to say here? thank you. that's really all i can say. thank you all for reading and then recommending this fic to others. i have gained much from your insight and am always thrilled to hear your thoughts. i know that this fic has been an odd one for some of you...and that i've taken the jaeho places that probably weren't expected but i did always intend for them to be together. i hope that i can in some small way, provide a closure for all of you with this section. i will be creating a PDF of the entire fic and posting it. i will do that in a couple of days after reading through it and checking formatting and other things.

so once again...thank you. i will see you in a few months. please keep the couch warm and the pillows plumped. and if anyone finds a stuffed lavender bunny, please return it to junsu, he will need it when i start writing again. hugs to you all...reece

Pairing: JaeHo
Rating: NC-17!... This section contains NO lemon.
Many thanks toranalore who REALLY REALLY is to blame.
Summary: The beginning of a shifting relationship. Hot Korean boys. Sex. Dancing and some angry words. Not necessarily in that order. Not necessarily in each section.

Previous Sections:
One; Two; Three; Four; Five; Six; Seven; Eight; Nine; Ten; Eleven; Twelve; Thirteen; Fourteen; Fifteen; Sixteen; Seventeen; Eighteen; Nineteen; Twenty; Twenty-One; Twenty-Two; Twenty-Three; Twenty-Four; Twenty-Five; Twenty-Six; Twenty-Seven; Twenty-Eight; Twenty-Nine; Thirty; Thirty-One; Thirty-Two; Thirty-Three; Thirty-Four

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Aug. 7th, 2008 07:52 am (UTC)
This was wonderfully written. I'm envious of your writing, haha.

The Scarlet character was a great addition to the story. From helping Jae through hard times to giving advice to Yunho. I'm glad Yunho stood up to his parents and didn't cave in to their words.

Another excellent story by you ♥
Aug. 7th, 2008 11:55 am (UTC)
thank you so so much :D i am so so glad you loved the story. thank you. so many smooches and snookies to you.

and yes, scarlet is one of my favourite characters. thank you.
Sep. 3rd, 2008 06:17 pm (UTC)
I read this on your vitaenoir website and was absolutely floored with it...it was just soooo intense...keep writing because you are definitely good at this!!!!!!!!!
Sep. 3rd, 2008 06:43 pm (UTC)
heh. thank you. very much. this was... well all three of them were labours of... love of sorts :D thank you.
Dec. 5th, 2008 08:54 am (UTC)
Thank you so much!
I must bring a big surprise to you... since i saw the last comment in this was from September...

But i want to say thank you...
I was known about your fic from my friend... and then, i must be so lucky, when i could be able to read the beautiful story named "So much mine", from its beginning, to its very end...

I was cry for a lot of words in this...

Like when i read that, "Kim Jaejoong would be someone I cherished, no matter what shell he was born into. I won’t allow you to strip me of that.”
It's the 1st time i heard about 'Kim Jaejoong's shell', and i did think it's such a great word... Yes, no matter what shell Kim Jaejoong's in, he's still juz a human... someone who want to be loved, and deserve to be loved... I want to say thank you, to Jung Yunho for saying that, and to you... for making Jung Yunho said that...

Like when i read about, "Have someone's heart to fall into"...
Wanting so much a heart to fall into... but yet still being scared of the question that if i did chose the right place or not...
Believing that when you are falling to the end, there will be someone/something catching you, holding you tight, make you feel free and light, and make you give up all your tiredness and pains... but yet still, worrying that maybe, in the end, all you could get just a hard, cold floor with yourself...

That's really a pain thought...

There are a lot of beautiful words in this... that i did feel very touched by them... I want to say thank you, and thank you so much... for giving me such a beautiful dream of our Yunjae's love...

When he said that Jaejoong was "the man I am going to wake up to for the rest of my life" i felt touched...
When he said that, "I can’t look at a box of crayons without thinking of you because you’ve made me see rainbows. Or smell green tea and hear you in my mind. And that makes me smile.
Like nothing else before has made me smile."
I felt touched...
From the great truth that 'he is the one I wake up for,' to the very simplest things that 'i look at it, and thinking about you... and i smile, because of the thoughts about you,' i all felt very touched... because all those things are belong to their love, all those things tell me that they are lover, and they love each others...

When i read about their love making in the glass-wall-bathroom, that "In the quiet of the now, all Jaejoong wanted was the man holding him to rock him until the night fell again." I did imagine about it... like all those noises of this mess world have been stopped outside... leaving a tiny space inside here remained quiet... so that the beautiful love song could be heard more clearly, more strongly... the beautiful song, was created by two intertwined soul, who have using nothing else but their heart, mind and soul to create it... give this world a chance to be able to hear, one of the most beautiful sounds...

I have to say, that i didn't get fully understand of all your words in this... yes, because of my lacking in English...
That's my regret... but from what i did understand... i want to say thank you, with my wholeheart... for your great works...

For the last words, i want to use one of your words in here, that "I sometimes am afraid that I’m going to wake up and find out that this is a dream."

Yes, i always afraid that, oneday i'll wake up, and find out that all everything about Yunjae in the reality, have turn out to be just a dream... the most beautiful dream that i've ever had... but also, is the most painful...

Thank you so much!
Dec. 5th, 2008 01:27 pm (UTC)
Re: Thank you so much!
♥♥♥♥ aw, thank you so very much. :::many hugs:::

i wanted yunjae's love to be... epic in a way that would take them through trials by fire and ice. because it would forge them and make them stronger. i wanted that for this coupling. i felt it was important to see that they loved one another despite sometimes...perhaps a lot of the times... not agreeing or seeing eye to eye.

that they would find one another in their hearts, no matter what. even when they were mad at one another, they were drawn together. that was so important to the story.

lavender bunny and tarnished angels has a lot of yunjae in them. yunjae's relationship is a continuing theme throughout the books. i made sure that you saw them evolve and grow through the stories. and well, most of the one shots of SMM too :::grins:::

thank you. and i appreciate your english! far better than my japanese...and certainly the few words in chinese that i know. i envy your skill. :::cheers:::

much love and thank you. i am very honoured. ♥♥♥♥
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Jan. 18th, 2009 01:33 pm (UTC)
Hey! ♥

I read this a long, long time ago; half a year ago, if I remember correctly. A friend sent me the PDF for it and I remember falling in love with the story. And I’m ashamed that I’ve never taken the time to tell you how much I enjoyed reading all three of them books. So, here I am. I only hope that my comment will do justice to your stunning series.

Like I said, I fell in love with all of the books in the series. You write so beautifully and each sentence, each word, conveys the emotion of the characters. Rarely do I find such an author like you and I figured to give praise where it’s due. The way you have written this series is just indescribable. These are the books you curl up with on a rainy day, when it’s wonderfully cold and you just want to shiver contentedly under your blankets with a good read. These books are the ones you read over and over again, none of the magic lost and each scene just as wonderful as it was the first time.

You’ve probably heard this lots of times already and you undoubtedly deserve each and every comment but, for all its worth, I’ll say it again. Your writing is gorgeous, wonderfully executed and just lovely. This series is equally gorgeous. It made me weep with both joy and sorrow. So, thank you so much. At the risk of sounding cheesy (lol), I think you’ve touched something deep within me with this series.

Thank you.
Jan. 18th, 2009 03:07 pm (UTC)

aw, thank you. so very much.

i am very happy that you read the series and liked it. it was such hard/fun/stress/joy to write. can you tell it was a wild ride? because it was.

i wanted to give their loves... an epic feel. a bit flowery and overly passionate sometimes but intense. i am guessing that you read that in these words. and i am happy for that too.

thank you so very very much. i cannot express my gratitude that you found something within the stories to love and connect to. that means everything in the world.

many snookies and cupcakes. ♥♥♥♥
Mar. 2nd, 2009 12:28 am (UTC)
...And now... I am done with So Much Mine... I swear I was rolling all over the place with laughter on my lips because all of the lovey doveyness between the two, but that disappeared when it became more hot and heavy with the smexing between them instead... I think my brain almost exploded from those last three chapters being filled with the smexing too... O-O

Even though I've already read Tarnished Angels (bad me for starting with the last one not the first one...) Changmin makes my heart weep with the way he is with love towards him... It shows in this so much that I had to stop and tell myself that it was before dear Dongwook...

Okay now I must disappear for a little while to get my head all in place before starting Lavender Bunny! I can't wait! The YooSu has been driving me crazy this whole time!
Mar. 2nd, 2009 01:12 am (UTC)

min is... shy, broken, fierce and snarly. se7en was a good match for him later one but ah, here... min is so young and trying to fit his heart into places.

smooches and hugs. i am glad you liked SMM. the styles between the books are different, and i'm happy you liked the YunJae. that is very sweet of you to say so. :D

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May. 14th, 2009 06:27 pm (UTC)
Finally I'm done reading this... Or better unfortunately I'm done for I wanted it too last much longer.
But everything has to end and it feels great reading such a perfect piece when it has a perfect ending, too! :)
And now I can continue with the YooSu! *claps her hands*

May. 14th, 2009 06:39 pm (UTC)
snookies and haato. thank you. so so much for reading. ah, i am glad you enjoyed the yunjae. they were adorable to write. :::grins:::

Oct. 2nd, 2009 05:12 pm (UTC)
And now you've made me cry... But those were the tears of happiness because this was soooooooo beautiful <3

“This ring is the moon which I see every time I touch your skin or find the lights in your eyes when we’re on stage. When I clench my hands, I am going to be holding you in my palm…holding your kiss to my skin. And when I place my hand against my chest, I will be taking your heart into mine.”

“You are mine, Kim Jung Jaejoong.”

It's just love love love and pure love ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Oct. 2nd, 2009 05:18 pm (UTC)
♥♥♥♥♥ thank you. ah, it was both happy and sad when i ended this. i knew that i was going to write lavender bunny but ah, leaving behind jaeho-centric SMM was sad. there's a lot of jaeho in both lavender bunny and tarnished angels but oh, the style... the drama of yunjae wasn't the focus and :::pats heart:::

i do so adore those boys. :::winks:::
Oct. 2nd, 2009 05:20 pm (UTC)
and here I was again, looking for the next chap when I realized that this was one the final one ^^
I don't think that I need to tell you how much I loved this fic, because all the previous comments prove so ^^

But I'm also curious as to what that phone call meant. The one from Yunho's mom.
Since this is the first book I guess that the rest is in the other books.
Well anyway, I think that it wont take long until I see that with my own eyes ^^

Thanks hun once again for writing such a beautiful story, filled with smiles, tears, happiness, sadness, anger and in the end the pure and unconditional love.
I loved every sentence of it and I'm really glad that I red it.
Oct. 2nd, 2009 05:31 pm (UTC)
♥♥♥♥ heh. this is the final one in this book. :::grins::: but yes, other things happen in the others.

ah, the phone call from yunho's mom. totally explained. and yes, they do eventually cross over into OTRC.

i am glad that you liked it. thank you so much for reading the beginning. it was a pleasure to have you along for the ride. ♥ smooches and snookies.
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Oct. 7th, 2009 09:45 pm (UTC)
I told you I was lurking! >DDDDDDDD

*explodes into Yunjae confetti*

That. Was. The. Most. Exhilarating. Fic. Evah. :D

How can one person make me feel the emotions of each and every character of a fiction as if they were my own and real?? You're magical~ Yunjae is magical~ Min is magical because he is the almighty maknae >8D.

I really just wanted to read through the very first book of this SMM series fluidly so I could get into the others and continue where I left off. (But that one chapter I broke my ninja!reading to comment was just so fanstasmical I would've died if I hadn't commented. :D) Now that I've finished the one, the original, the awesomeness SMM, I will continue on the others. <333333

<3333333333333 <----- See that? That's love. For you. :D Or double scooped ice cream.... o.o In which case....we must share. >D

On to my OTP the next awesomeness! I promise I shall leave more regular comments from now on. :DDDDDDDDD Dong Bang fic love fighting~!

*leaves you a whole car worth of cookies~*
But you have to give the car back when you're done with the treats. o.o I rented it under Yunho's name. xDDDDDDDD
Oct. 8th, 2009 02:35 am (UTC)
aaaaawwwww thank you. ♥♥♥♥♥♥ heh.... i have wanted to put these stories to that point of almost real. where if you looked sideways, you could maybe see a fantastic reality or a realistic fantasy. ::::nods::: ♥♥♥♥♥

heh. you are so sweet. and thank you. :::squishes you:::: heh.... poor yunnie.. we always end up abusing him.

oooo ice cream. i'll be glad to share. :::shares ice cream and cookies::::
Oct. 10th, 2009 08:13 pm (UTC)
Ring ring rings <33.
Im so glad that Yunjae has a happy ending ;DD.
Now Ima hop off to read Yoosu (and hope that there isn't 14 chapters of agnst waiting for me from the very beginning =xxx)
OKOK, Im over the angstttt.
But this has been an awesome series, despite the fact that I skipped a couple or paragraphs here and there since I don't understand it LOL.
But, Good job dear <3.
(Ima add u? Its so fun to talk to you over comments xDD)
Oct. 11th, 2009 05:43 am (UTC)
heh... please add me. it's always good. :::hugs::: heh. and ah, angst i don't think yoosu or min7en have as much angst. and aw, yunjae is love. snookies.
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Oct. 13th, 2009 01:51 pm (UTC)
I've read a lot of fics, both series and oneshots especially JaeHo since they're one of my OTP's. I gotta say this series might be the most different series of them all. Not only is it epic, the way you convey emotions through descriptions and mere words are astounding. You define the simplest of things to something so extraordinary this fic borderlines poetic. Not to mention their oaths of undying love for each other :p It's sappy in most parts yes, but I guess the fic calls for it judging by your use of words.

I had fun reading this fic, no matter how heavy it is in the chest because of the turmoils, misunderstandings, haunting pasts, etc. JaeHo completed and complemented each other in ways that someone who wants to fall in love could ever dream of.

The situations in this series can really be found in real life... I think that's what got me interested aside from the fact that a friend claims that the smut here is just to die for... which is true. My toes curl whenever I'm in the lemon parts The fear of the outside world, the rejection and the self-chaos on finiding out that everything you've been taught can be overthrown by someone else entirely. i understood their pains because it's real. I KNOW it happens... not that I'm gay or anything... I'm just glad they matured enough in a short amount of time to understand that.

I love the JaeChun BFFery... My chest clenches whenever Min looks at Su while Su looks at Chunnie. But I KNOW YooSu is meant to be here. They just have to realize that.

Hwaiting~ :)

Oct. 13th, 2009 02:13 pm (UTC)
hello! and smooches. aw, thank you very much for reading. i hope you enjoyed it. ah, yoosu... well i tackled them in lavender bunny and min got his own fic in tarnished angels :::Grins::: Then the last book On The Red Couch is finished... just recently... my brain is broken. :::pants and falls over::: heh....

i wanted to show a life that was a "maybe"... something just a little bit off of the truth... definitely fiction but it had possiblities. in doing so, it allowed me to reflect upon critical issues that would face these young men. i hope that it came across okay.

i wrote SMM in a very gothic style... very florid. :::Grins::: i wanted a different style for each of the pairings and i thought the intense poetry of a darker richer style would suit this yunjae rather than something a bit more contemporary. i think i wanted the feel of a historical j-drama :::grins again:::

thank you so so much for reading this. i am so grateful for you. haato. and snookies.
Oct. 20th, 2009 12:59 am (UTC)
I actually started off reading your fanfics when you started posting On The Red Couch. I was so addicted to it, I found myself flitting in and out of your journal to read your other works.

These stories were beautifully written...this one being my favorite because I AM ALL ABOUT THE YUNJAE...I really love this OTP and your take on the trials of their relationship was so well-written..I was bawling myself nuts during some of the parts.

Please forgive me if it isn't my habit to post comments in every chapter. But I would like you to know that your efforts are greatly appreciated. I am warmed by the thought that the Kpop World's favorite OTP was handled by someone with your skill. Thank you. Now I'm off to read Lavender Bunny.
Oct. 20th, 2009 02:59 am (UTC)
heh... ah thank you. i am so happy that you liked this book. ah, the series... there's a lot of yunjae in it... *coffs*myfavouriteOTP*coffs* lavender bunny has a different voice than SMM and Tarnished angels even another one. There are also a couple of one shots for the universe too.

I do have a soft spot for min7en but that's because they're snarky. :::Grins::: snookies and thank you. again.
Nov. 14th, 2009 02:06 pm (UTC)
~______________________~ PERFECT ENDING. i 8anted more yoosu though!!!
Nov. 14th, 2009 03:57 pm (UTC)
♥♥♥♥♥♥ heh... ah yoosu. there's lavender bunny. ::::Grins::: a whole book of yoosu. :::winks::: ♥

and thank you.
Dec. 1st, 2009 08:19 pm (UTC)
This fic is so beautiful. So full of stuff to think of, full of knowledge, aahhh... Thank you for writing it. I like it very much. I'm sure I'm going to read it again.
Dec. 1st, 2009 09:30 pm (UTC)
aw, thank you honey. i am glad that there was something in this that spoke to you. ::::hugs:::: thank you for reading it. very muchly.

snookies. ♥♥♥♥
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Mar. 13th, 2010 03:56 am (UTC)
smooches and hugs. and ah, there is love. you have to know that love is there. and it can be had and wonderful. :::nods::: i know there is. :::grins::

smooches and snookies. and thank you honey! i am so happy you liked it.

and wooot! good luck with your exam! HWAITING!!!!!
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